I'm jealous!

I'm jealous. Super jealous. And those negative things start to hit my brain. I'm thinking about u with another guy! In that island.

If only u can give some comforts! Saying that there'll be nothing happen between you two. And you will faithfully keep my trust. Instead, NO! BIG NO! You treat me like a typical friend with a short text and a flowery greet.

I don't need mornings, evenings, or even occasional "I miss you" phrase. What I need you to say is: don't worry. I won't break the promise!! Constantly!

Call me kiddos, childish, immature, or even intention-obsession! But, I learn from the past that constant reminder is way better to keep the relationship than ignorance and misunderstanding.

I start to think of breaking up with you. It kills me the way my brain negatively concern about you. And just like an effect, a butterfly effect, I begin to analyze, consider, and expand my mind to what will happen in the future. So typical of me, worrying about something that might be untrue.

I still have, let me count first, around 6 days before you return here. And these six days will kill me inside. I won't allow it because I will give myself a torture, a feel of torturing, and it's bad for me! I won't allow you to ruin my life.

I guess when you return to the city, you will notice the way I change. I change because I like you and I feel that I can't handle the true. It's better for the two of us to have our own lives.