Happy Sunday.

It's sunday again. Went back from the church. Gosh. I feel want to write something but when I start writing, I have no clue where o start it..

Oh well.. am just gonna pick some discussion i have with ma students, a few days ago..

It's about.. Where have i been all this time?

So sudden, it strucked me that I have been travellin to many exciting places, but when she asked that question, i answered immediately, i want to go to aussie.. Dude.. no connection at all..
Ma question is: Am i so desperately bad of goin therE>? What kind of adventures will i except if i landed ma feet there?

The second question is: Why i want to teach? HEll yeah, i have no answer for it.. till now.. and probably a few period of time in the future.. what the heck.~

Kinda not in ma cheering mode now, sumhw i feel so sad.. the reason is very simple.. Two days ago, i have this dream.. we were in a situation.. some emergency.. i supposed.. and at that time, i was with ma ex.. I kept askin her, why she never replied ma messages, ma sms.. and emails.. (again, it's in ma dream).. and she kept makin a distance.. until i reachd a place where (i think i was in a middle of packin) she askin me back, why i kept annoyin her with that question.. and i jsut answerd this, because i love you! weird huh!! IT's in ma dream, and i was sayin that sacred sentence.~ And oh, this one is nt the one that i think am gonna spend ma whole life with.. What a crazy and/or surprisin dream.. And i believe, in ma dream, i lookd closely and saw her reaction.. she was surprised, and a lil smile on her face..

Now, ma question.. am i so desperately in love with her? For the record, i neva believe in dreams.. good or bad.. because i neva/seldom have dreams durin ma sleep.. and when i have them, usually a bad ones.. And ma friends, lately they were havin dreams about me.. about me.. and if i have this kinda dream, will i have the chance to meet her again? Yeah, have to admit, am still in love with her, but what the use if she doesnt love me? In fact, does she just try to be polite to me?

Oh I wish she just reply ma message.. and gives answers.. yes or no. Simple.. In fact, it's her birthday this friday.. I have plans, but i suppose it's just a plan that won't come true..

I saw her singin at the church this mornin. She's dyin her hair again.. As usual.. I was fascinatin by her looks.. Gosh! Move on richard.. move on!@

ps: as i told ya, beren, it's ma mood that not so good.. it's probably sundae afternoon, and the weather is killin me! a very hot temperature..